Saturday, September 22, 2007
Mario's eating Arnold's chicken in front of me, kept asking if I want some.......
It was just 2 months ago when we had Arnolds chicken together..........
Thinking of him again......
Why did it all ended up like this.................
Can you hear me? @ | Saturday, September 22, 2007
Linked the reason that I fell sick to those 2 big blisters that I had on Tuesday. Those heels hurt. I could feel the water in the blisters each time I took a step. Ouch^^....Thank you to Stephanie, to my rescue with the plasters and the slippers. No choice but to burst those blisters....Staggered home, and the iodine solution bit me......Ouch..in tears..asking my brother to get me pain killers....I felt so uncomfortable....
the next day, I was sick.....by night, I've lost my voice...
Gonna request to work from home if I still don't recover by Monday......sob sob but I really wannna be in for the meeting on Monday.....!!.....
Revenue house....have to figure out how to drive there tomorrow, I know it's located along the bus route from Bugis.......9-5pm.....soon to suffer from brain damage.....
Can you hear me? @ | Saturday, September 22, 2007
*.* Sick again.... *.*
I’m sick again, flu, coughing my lungs out again. This time round I’ve even lost my voice. Can’t even remember when was the last time I’ve lost my voice for those 4 days. Inability to speak is killing me. I just want to recover soon….I’m already depressed enough, why let me fall sick at this time…It was only 2 months ago that my body gave way, he took care of me. I'm sick again, but this time he’s not there anymore…..there seems to be no cure for heartache……it just ache and ache
It’s been a long and tiring week for me, broke down crying when I got home last night. The walk at Takashimaya and Wisma reminded me of him, the Christmas shopping, he said he’ll shop with me this year, his brows accidentally shaven, G200, the photo at Wisma, that night when he walked me home from train station…I can’t help being reminded of him…
My colleague pulled me to a side and asked what happened to me. It’s been only awhile since she last met me at the offsite at Phuket 4 months ago, why am I so different, all quiet now, I still look so happy and chatty a few months ago. The offsite which contributed to killing my love, don’t remind me anymore. My boss was there, she heard it, she saw my face changed, she knew the reason for the change in me, helped to brush the question with a reply. “We’ve been stress in Spore office”…..
Supposed to have 2 days of Geneva training at Fullerton and I was asked to sit in for another 2 days to assist others, 4 days in all. I’m exhausted. Why me again and again, can’t they appoint other people…? Sometimes I really wonder if these are opportunities for me to grow in the firm. Why always Singapore office?
The opportunity came when I could finally convey messages across to that partner, for the mistakes that our finance team did almost a year ago. Being distant away, we were blamed by others, being made scapegoat, no chance for us to speak up. Finally, I was able to speak up for my team. He asked me about my opinions on certain issues, and I gave him my honest comments from my perspective. Phew! It felt good. Later in the day, my Asia CFO told me about the feedbacks on me that he provided. Hmm “Really? This morning he was still asking who I am when I stepped into the room?”……..
I was there when my FCs and CFO were asked to justify the additional headcount, totally embarrassed each time I heard my name. “To help Angeline with ……..so that Angeline can ………Angeline has been doing……….to alleviate Angeline…”
Well, I’m just a tool for them to get a bigger portion of the cake…..
Was supposed to be Brissy today, I've cancelled the ticket..cancelled all the plans I had..he'll be happier with this decision.....I just want to recover from all the sickness....
Can you hear me? @ | Saturday, September 22, 2007
Sunday, September 16, 2007
A daily outburst of emotions and tears, it has become part of my daily routine. Amazed at the volume of tears in me, how easily it rolled each time I think of him……Everything and everyday.
Stepped into World of Sports, only to see his favourite Addidas shoes, does he still wear the pair I bought? Bangawan Solo’s Fouram cookies which he bought for me, the mint green box which I still used, talking piggies from Guardian Pharmacy, John Little and the grey pullover, the hush puppies socks, his favourite 5 series moving ahead of me, Durian---his dislike….Tim sum, sat at the table we’ve sat before, I can still see him walking with plate of fried yam cake……the list just go on and on
Bought an empire cut dress today, perfect with the red stilettos, why do I still wish that he can see me in this dress....perhaps I know it's something that he once like to see me in......I don’t know why but he just gives me the feeling he hates me now, everything I do and say will only increase his hatred for me…
Weeping, grieving, mourning….will continue, for how long I don’t know, but I’m definite it's gonna be long….I’ll never be the same as before….
Can you hear me? @ | Sunday, September 16, 2007
*.* Sex Kitten and Pierre Cardin *.*
I've finally found the 'Princess' Lingerie from Pierre Cardin. I love it....Just have a liking for Pink with Black lining, still searching for an empire cut blouse, pink and black lining...... 
2 black buttons at each side, saying "Sweet Angel" on the bum. Hot Pink...love the white button and the little white rope string...Pink Pink Pink!
The lingerie reminded me of 'Sex Kitten' shop at Surfers paradise---Sex Kitten---epitome of femininity.a blouse like the below, sytle of the 1900s....
Gorgeous~
Can you hear me? @ | Sunday, September 16, 2007
2 black buttons at each side, saying "Sweet Angel" on the bum. Hot Pink...love the white button and the little white rope string...Pink Pink Pink!
